I can’t believe it’s been a year already since I finally got this blog up and running. Time flies. I’ve been trying to make sure I update and post at least 4 times a month but sometimes it’s really hard to find things to blog about. Sometimes I have a lot I want to write about that it’s overwhelming and I don’t know where to begin to get it all down. And sometimes I have nothing I want to write about. But as they say, when it rains, it pours.
Unfortunately though, a year has passed by and I still have no idea what my niche is. Although a majority of the time I spend talking about my relationships, the gym or Disney. It must get boring but I mean, you’re still here, right? Sometimes I get some nice ideas from my followers from the questions submitted. So I guess, for now like my first entry last year, this blog is still about all of the things in me. From adventures to experiences, to my current interests and goals and anything I stumble upon and anything I want to share about my life.
I do find blogging strangely therapeutic. And I love having a space to store and display my photoshoots instead of hoarding them away on my computer. I also think my blog helped push me into doing more and exploring more. Or maybe I just notice it because now it’s also helping me track more of what’s going on in my life as I write about it. Either way, I like that it’s become an archive of my life. Mainly I write for me, but I’m glad there are people out there that enjoy reading.
And yes, I see you trolls too. The people who read because they just want to check up and gossip. Oh yes, my website has your stats too every time you visit. Don’t think you go unnoticed. But as they say, your biggest fan is a stranger. Your biggest hater is someone you know. Let’s take a moment of silence for those who hate us but can’t unfriend/unfollow us because they are afraid of not knowing what’s happening in our lives. I’ve learned to let people judge me, misunderstand me and gossip about me all they want. Their problems with me are not my problem, as it speaks more about them than it does about me. Besides. If the person talking shit about you isn’t even close to having their shit together, pay them no mind. Don’t dim your light just because someone else is uncomfortable with it as they’re trying to learn to shine on their own. Do flowers compete with each other? No. They just bloom in their own time and space.
I started this blog because I do want to share my life experiences with those who are genuinely interested in seeing what I see, and living vicariously through my silly adventures and all the photos I take. When someone says you can’t do something, do it twice. And take pictures. Hahaha! I also love reading your comments and messages when you relate to what I write about. The human connection is a powerful thing and despite my somewhat anti-social mean girl nature at times, I do enjoy connecting and engaging with people who have something to bring to the table when it’s more than a dumb “hey” fuckboi thirst message. I’m not about the small talk and niceties. I enjoy bantering with those who get straight to the point and get their message across. I also appreciate when people take the time and follow and remember things, instead of asking the same dumb questions about what vitamins I take. So for those following and always coming back and keeping up to date with me and especially those checking in on me from time to time to see if I’m doing okay, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I’ve never cared to focus on my follower count number honestly as Instagram screws with your reach with their shitty algorithms, but I was also never trying to be instafamous or anything. I AM grateful though for the organic followers, those who read and follow and return. I’m glad you guys enjoy my blog despite not knowing where I’m going with this.
What I have learned in the past year as I tried to grow, which I think you should think about as it’ll help everyone put things in perspective if they’re wondering if they’re on the right path: The universe only ever has three answers for your.
Not right now.
I have something better for you.
My lesson goes out to those who are afraid they’re not “blooming” fast enough with their friends who are getting engaged, married, pregnant, buying their first house, etc. Remember, their season is not your season. And do you even want that path? You don’t need to do the same things just because they’re doing it and that makes them happy. Those same things might not make you happy so don’t waste your time chasing dreams that aren’t your own.
I say this because my mom and everyone under the sun keeps pressuring me to have a baby because they think that’s the next step I should follow into. But I’ve never felt like that was a good enough reason just because it’s “the next step.” For me, there’s more to life than just having kids. It’s not my path right now and that’s ok. I love the one I’m on and I absolutely love just enjoying the ride with my husband as we venture through our life together.
That’s not to say there’s something wrong with that. I know there are people out there whose whole life dream is to just be a parent. It’s a hard undertaking, I know. Carrying as well as raising a child in this day and age is no joke. I have a lot of respect for those who have the patience, love and time for this. I simply don’t think this is my calling currently and that for me, there’s more out there in the world for me to enjoy and explore first before deciding if I want to go down that heavy path.
For now, that is not my path. Which is funny because 5 years ago when I got married, I told myself that I’d give myself 5 years before my husband and I would have a kid. And now 5 years are up. But I still am not ready nor do I want one. I still am enjoying the journey. I don’t even know if they’ll ever be in the cards for us anymore honestly. But I’m also glad that we’re both on the same page that we’ll be okay if it doesn’t happen. It’s so incredibly liberating when your partner/best friend/spouse/whatever is on the same page, and it’s such an incredible feeling to know you have their support in what you want to choose to do.
I don’t know what this next year of blogging holds for me but I’m excited to work on more growth even if it’s little baby steps. Remember to always celebrate the little wins as you work on the bigger picture. I’m still working on my empire, even if I’m unsure of where I want it to lead me. I still have no idea what I want to do career-wise but for now I’m still happy pharmacy helps pay the bills and funds the lifestyle I’m trying to live as much as my salary will allow me after the mortgage, students loans, taxes and bills are taken out, hahaha. But alas, in 3 years time, it’ll be over for you all when my true potential is unleashed, ahahahaha!